7 Weeks

Just went out to take this picture with my mom. I'm so tired today and it's so cold outside. I think I need to sit up straighter when I take these so I don't look fat :(                      

How Far Along? 7 Weeks 1 day! Week 6 went so fast, I can't believe we're already here at week 7. Every week is going so fast. This is crazy to think there are just 33 weeks left (or less) yikes!

How Big is Baby? Our baby is now as big as a blueberry. 

Total Weight Gain: I'm not sure this week because I'm not at home with my scale. Probably around 5 lbs though. 

Maternity Clothes? No, but I need maternity bras and will be buying them as soon as we get back home. That's number 1 right now. My bras hurt so much. 

Stretch Marks? Not yet.

Sleep: I've been sleeping funny because I'm not at home. Some nights I sleep right on through the night and sometimes I wake up and then can't fall back asleep in the middle of the night. Not fun. 

Best Moment this Week: Finally being able to tell my family and best friends from WI :)

Miss Anything:  Healthy food.

Movement: Not yet, but I wish.

Food Cravings: No cravings really this week. Food aversions, yes. Nothing in particular, just certain times of the day all food sounds disgusting. I had to force lunch yesterday.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not sick, but slightly queasy with food sometimes.

Gender: I still think boy : )

Labor Signs: Not yet thank goodness. 

Symptoms: breast tenderness, slight food aversions. I don't really feel any symptoms right now. I'm glad my appointment is so soon so I can feel comforted from that (hopefully). 

Belly Button in or out: In thank goodness!

Happy or Moody most of the time? Happy most of the time. I haven't had any ridiculous crying or outbursts yet. I do get irritated quicker than normal.

Looking Forward to: Now we are starting to get excited about our first appointment! Just 5 days away now. I cannot wait to get there to just know our baby is okay. It's so hard wondering about them and not knowing.

Just today and tomorrow left at my parent's house and then we're back on the road to go home. We've been here for 6 days. It's always just the right time to head back when we stay for a week. My mom will come visit us soon. 

Telling Nama and Papa H.

We arrived here in WI and I wanted to make sure we told my parents right away because I couldn't wait any longer. We got in and settled in for probably just 10-15 minutes and then I told my parents, "I have a really exciting present for you from our wedding that we finally got that I want you to see right away! Go sit in the living room!!" Somehow, they were still clueless. They were so excited we were here and that it was from our wedding that they didn't even think about it (what they told me later). 

So they sat on the couch together with all my siblings around (minus Cody) and they looked at each and every page of our book (very slowly). They finally got to the last page and saw the note from Baby Lanese and my mom just started crying and closed the book. She was so so happy. My dad said, "What's going on, you closed the book, I didn't see!" So I quick opened it up and said, "I'm having a baby!" My dad said, "Really!!" Then we all hugged and the kids were all excited and everyone was just excited and my mom just cried and cried. 

It was awesome. I wish I would have taken pictures of it but I thought for sure they knew what we were doing because they knew we were trying. My mom said that she didn't think I'd been calling or talking to her about it because I didn't want to talk about it anymore. : ) We actually surprised them! I'm not sure how, but we did and I loved it so much!

Now, they are both so catering and helpful to me to make sure I am happy and feel good while we're here. My mom has been talking to me about everything a lot to make me feel better and my dad even made me lunch today : ) They bought Matt a water bottle for Christmas yesterday so that he will stop drinking out of mine because I need it. 

My siblings are so funny. My brother keeps joking that he thinks we're having twins because of how much of a belly I already have. (It is kind of scary how much I have already but I know it's not twins). 

Cirrah has been asking lots of questions and keeps telling me, "Don't talk about it or it will fly out!" Ha! 

Caleb was rough housing today and tossed Cogsy onto my lap and I said, "Ow Caleb". He started crying and said, "I'm sorry! I hurt the baby!!"...so sweet. I reassured him that the baby is fine : )

It's so nice having them know!!!

6 Weeks

{I was feeling completely un-cute when we took these. We took them yesterday since we're on our road trip to WI today. I was feeling so bloated. No cute baby bump big,  just fat feeling.}

How Far Along? 6 Weeks

How Big is Baby? Our baby is now the size of a sweet pea. They have little arms and legs and their spinal cord is forming. 

Total Weight Gain: 3 lbs

Maternity Clothes? Nope, not yet. But sweatpants and leggings are feeling the best right now.

Stretch Marks? Hopefully not anytime soon.

Sleep: Matt says I'm a crazy sleeper. I cry out loud from my dreams and my legs and arms are everywhere while I'm sleeping. Apparently I'm hogging the bed...oops.

Best Moment this Week: Telling a few of my dance moms yesterday. One of them is 31 weeks pregnant and she let me feel her little boy kick. It was the coolest thing to know that soon I'll get to feel that.

Miss Anything: Yummy cheeses. I love cheese and am missing getting to have good ones like gouda, goat, feta and brie. 

Movement: Not any yet, but I cannot wait for that!

Food Cravings: Cheese is always good to me. Breakfast, snack, lunch, dinner....Mmmmmm.

Anything making you queasy or sick: When I'm hungry I feel nauseous until I eat something. Not quiet yet like I'm going to puke, but close. 

Gender: Still feeling like we'll have a boy, but I'm probably wrong :) Which is also definitely ok!!!

Labor Signs: Not yet.

Symptoms: Still little cramping throughout the day and breast tenderness. New is this yucky nauseous feeling. I am just waiting for that to get worse and turn into full on morning sickness. We are in the middle of our road trip to WI and this morning in the car I felt kind of yucky. 

Belly Button in or out: For sure still in.

Wedding Rings on or off: On.

Happy or Moody most of the time? Really happy :)

Looking Forward to: Getting home to see my family in just 1 more full day. We have all day tomorrow to drive, a bit on Saturday and then we should get there before Saturday night! Yay! Then we get to tell everyone!!!! I just enjoyed a bacon cheeseburger, blooming onion and french fries from Outback. Sorry Little Bean...I was so hungry and it was the only thing that sounded good. I did do a great job of eating healthy on the trip today. Lots of fruit and water.

Wanting to Tell my Family!

I am having the hardest time not telling my parents about our baby. I think that is what is keeping it from feeling 100% real still. I am 5 weeks and 4 days pregnant and I cannot believe that my Mom & Dad don't know yet. I never keep anything from them. I'm doing it on purpose because I want that moment to be shared with them in person so I can hug them and we can all be excited together. It will be worth it when we get there. I will be 6 weeks and 2 days when I tell them, so that's still pretty early. 

I got our pictures from Jessica today so I put them in the back of our wedding photo book for them. I cannot wait to give them their best Christmas gift of all time! My Mom has been waiting and so excited to be a Grandma. I want our kids to call her Nama and to call my Dad, Pops :) I hope my Dad likes that name, we'll see. I had a dream last night that he hated it. He wants to be called Big Papa. We're okay with him being called Papa if he wants, but I don't want the "Big" Papa part lol. 

We are going to get there late on Friday night (hoping the weather is okay) and we told Cody, my brother, to come over in the morning on Saturday because we have a "Family Gift" for them. I don't think he knows still :) Or if he does he hasn't said anything. Matt thinks my parents know too because I call my mom every month when I get my period and am always talking to her about baby things. I haven't even said the word baby to her since we found out which was almost 3 weeks ago. She's got to know...They're doing a good job of not saying anything.

Tonight I called her at 8pm our time (10pm by them) because I was so excited that my team moms got me a Coach purse, scarf/gloves, massage gift card and See's Candy for Christmas. I was giddy about it and wasn't thinking about how late it was. I said, "MOM! Guess what?!" She was like, "WHAT??" It sounded like she thought I was going to tell her I was pregnant. Or maybe it's in my head.

The other day talking to my dad I let it slip and said, "Matt's sick now, but at least he's allowed to take medicine for his cold." He didn't say anything but my heart dropped because I was waiting for him to ask. Eek. 

We will be there in just a few more days and there's just 4 more mornings that need to pass before it's the morning we tell them. The REALLY hard part is going to be arriving and not telling them when we get there and waiting for morning. Yikes.

I'm going to bring everything to show my Mom. My tests, my books, my scrapbook I'm making our Little Bean. I'm excited that she'll know we call our baby Little Bean. I think when she was pregnant with Cody that she called him that because now he is always Beaner, Coco Bean, Coconut and just Coco now to my little siblings. I was always Punky Girl : ) and they still call me Punky. 

It will be much easier to explain to my family why we need to leave on the 30th which is family Christmas. We need to get home for our first appointment on the 2nd!!

I'm just so excited to tell them. Every time I call them I have a hard time talking to them. I talk but I think all I'm saying is, "I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant..." and then wonder if I've said it out loud. Oh boy.

Just a few more days!!! : ) 

**Random update: my sports bras no longer fit me. YAY!**

Letter to our Little Bean: On Keeping them Safe

*Note to future self: share this only with them when they are old enough to understand and not be afraid (Newton, CT). maybe even keep this one tucked away until their teenagers. (especially if they turn out with your personality, they'll be sleeping in your bed for months).

To my Little Bean,

Your heart beats now and you are as big as an appleseed. You're doing some serious growing. A lot has happened in the news this week and carrying you around in my tummy through all of it has really got me thinking. 20 beautiful little children's lives were taken on Friday in Newton, CT. I am sure you will read about it someday or hear your Daddy and I talking about it. It is really an awful thing that has happened. Yesterday, the media released pictures of the little ones and it hit even closer to home seeing how young they really were. All 6 and 7 years old. They were all so innocent, just like you. They were all just in school. Maybe doing an art project or listening to a story, when a man came and decided to take their lives. I said to Daddy all day, "We're homeschooling our kids!" Daddy is more realistic and said no to that. (Not because he doesn't want to protect you, because he loves you just as much as I do).

I may not always be able to protect you like I am right now.  Carrying you around in my tummy everyday, I make choices for you like not drinking coffee or soda, or eating just 2 cookies at our cookie bake yesterday instead of my usual dozen. I chose not to play spoons with the family (who gets a little crazy and wrestles) and instead crocheted you a blanket and laughed at them. I ate soup instead of turkey sandwiches yesterday and decided it wouldn't be a good idea to hold Caitlin who was sick with a fever yesterday.  Being in my tummy, I get to protect you like this all day long, every single day.

Once you are born, I will continue doing my absolute best to protect you. I will make sure you are fed, that you have a home, that you are learning and that you are happy. Those things, I can make happen. The thing that makes me hurt inside is knowing that there are somedays, that I can't always protect you physically. You're going to go to school one day, Little Bean. My prayer is that 6 years from now when you go to Kindergarten, that there is a way that they have this problem solved a bit more. Your Daddy and I do not agree with people owning guns, at all. It's hard to know there is nothing we can do about that one. We know just like everything else in this world, that everyone has their right to their opinions and we are very respectful of that.

I had a hard time falling asleep last night after seeing all those sweet little faces who are now angels. This morning I woke up with the same sadness. Then it hit me; how I can help you. There is a difference I can make with this whole situation. I may not be able to find a cure for mental illness or take away everyone's guns, but what I can do is raise a beautiful human being. You, Little Bean. I can raise you to know right from wrong. I can teach you about compassion and love. This, should be fairly easy, especially if you have your Daddy's heart and my passion. If we raise you to be a good person, a good member of society, then we are doing our part to have this happen one less time.

Last weekend, you were also at a huge event in history. You attended one of the first same sex marriages in Washington. You were there right in my tummy. How amazing is that. You'll have known equality since before you were born. That is so important to your Daddy and I, too.

I just want you to know that once you are in my arms instead of in my tummy, that your Daddy and I will always put you first. We will always protect you. Just like I do now. When you fall, we will always be there to pick you up. Sometimes, we may let you know you can do things yourself, but we'll always be right there next to you cheering you on.

We love you, Little Bean.
We will always be here for you!

Love,
Mommy

5 Weeks

I love making it another week. This week has brought some fun new symptoms and they make me so happy. Just knowing our Little Bean is in there growing so big is the best feeling in the world.

The only thing I notice in these pictures from last week is that my boobs are bigger. Matt noticed too but probably no one else could :) Also I've got some serious bloat going on...

How Far Along? 5 Weeks

How Big is Baby? According to thebump.com, our baby is the size of an appleseed! That's a big jump from a poppyseed :) 

Total Weight Gain: 2 lbs

Maternity Clothes? Nope, not yet. I have been pinning some though, I have a feeling I'll be buying them sooner than I thought. Every time I finish I meal my pants feel too tight.

Stretch Marks? Nope. I bought some cocoa butter yesterday because my boobs have started getting sore and I don't want them to get any stretch marks.

Sleep: I am still waking up once every night to pee. Sometimes I have a hard time falling back asleep after that. 

Best Moment this Week: This week we told Matt's siblings that we are expecting our first little one. I also made my first purchase at "The Bump" at the mall (a store I've dreamt of shopping in forever). I also bought our little one an outfit and a book. It was a great feeling buying baby things knowing they are for our baby! I also loved having our pictures taken, they turned out perfect and my parents are going to love them!!

Miss Anything: Tuna sandwiches. Before being pregnant I would eat them a few times a week and I always get them at Panera. My mouth is watering thinking about it. Once we make it through the 1st Trimester, I will go treat myself to one :) 

Movement: Not any yet, but I cannot wait for that!

Food Cravings: Still loving cheese, specifically cheddar cheese. Mmmm!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Not yet. We'll see how long that lasts...I've heard that all hits during week 6. I'm still very early to be feeling symptoms.

Gender: We've got quite a bit of time before we know, but I'm feeling like we're going to have a boy. Matt says that just because I'm feeling that, that we are for sure having a girl. We'll see...

Labor Signs: Way too early!

Symptoms: New this week are nipple soreness and extreme bloating. Last night after dinner I looked like I was 16 weeks pregnant. We thought it was so funny and took a picture. (I will not be posting it lol). Some of my continued symptoms from last week are that I'm tired, hungry all the time and pee more than I used to.

Belly Button in or out: For sure still in, but that I am most scared about my belly button popping out. Right now I am more scared about that than giving birth (no joke). I have a phobia of people touching my belly button. I don't let anyone touch it. I won't even touch it if I can avoid it. It hurts. Ew. It gives me the chills.

Wedding Rings on or off: On.

Happy or Moody most of the time? It's about half and half really. I get irritated really fast. (Poor Matt). But I'm also really happy most of the time :) How could I not be right now?!

Looking Forward to: Right now I am counting down the days until we are in WI and I can tell my parents! It's getting harder and harder to not tell them on the phone. Sometimes when I'm talking to them I'll be talking but really thinking in my mind, "I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant..." and then I'll think I said it out loud and it freaks me out. It will feel great to just know that they know! I can't wait to go shopping for baby items with my mom!

I love knowing that our baby is now the size of an appleseed. I love when I have a bloated tummy at night and "feel" pregnant. Hooray for being 5 weeks pregnant now! I bought "What to Expect When You're Expecting" this week and it was so fun to read it. I've made it through month #1 :)

Pregnancy Announcement Photos!

One of my dance mom/friends took our pictures on Saturday so that we can give them to my family to make our big announcement for Christmas. They turned out great! We went to our local library :)

We're going to tell my parents by giving them our wedding photo book with these at the end! 

"Yes I Am"

Our plan was not to tell Matt's siblings until next weekend when we have our Christmas with them, but last night we all got to be a part of an amazing experience that brought us together a week early as well. 

Last night were the first gay marriages in WA and we got to be there for one of the weddings at the Thurston County Courthouse at midnight. Matt's brother works for the state and knew one of the men that got married last night. 

Little Bean, I hope that you always know that everyone is equal and deserves a chance to be this happy. You got to be there too and I am so happy to be able to tell you that one day! Mommy & Daddy have many great friends who are gay and I am so glad you will grow up knowing no difference. 

Our plan was to tell everyone next weekend by walking to the front door and I would just take my coat off for everyone to see my shirt which would read "Yes I Am" because Matt's siblings are always asking since they know we are (were) trying. I was bummed yesterday that I didn't have time to prep for this before we went over to Matt's brother's house. So, Nana to the rescue! She grabbed a white shirt that she had and a black fabric marker and I quick made it before we left to go to their house.

I was so nervous to tell everyone. 

So I had the t-shirt on under my jacket and the plan was to do the same thing as planned before; just take my coat off and see who will notice what it says. Well, we got there and Megan & Clint were at the house with the kids but Chris & Mel (Matt's siblings) were out together getting pizza. So when we got there Matt told me not to take off my jacket. So for a good 10-15 minutes I just tried to make it seem normal that I hadn't taken my coat off yet lol. It felt so weird. 

Finally, they got home and about 30 seconds after they walked in, I took my jacket off. Everyone was in the living room when I turned around. At first no one got it (which was shocking) so then they finally got it and I screamed "I'M PREGNANT" lol. There were hugs and it was funny :) 

Then I couldn't stop talking about our bean all night.

It was definitely a night for the history books! LOTS of love yesterday :)

-Chelsea Kay-

Dear Little Bean

Dear Little Bean,

I just want you to always know how excited we, your Mommy & Daddy are about having you. We have hoped, prayed, dreamed and thought about what it would be like to have you for so long. We can't wait to meet you in just about 36 more weeks. Mommy isn't the most patient person, but suddenly the days are going fast. I want to soak up every moment of this. I want to remember ever second of what it feels like to have you this close to me. There is going to come a day when it will be rare to have your head even rest on my shoulder. When that day comes, I will look back and be able to remember when you were so little. I'll remember how amazing it was to be this close to you for a whole 9 months. This is a really special time we get to share together and I couldn't ask for anything better. 

I want to let you know about your amazing Daddy. 

Mommy's been pretty sick this week (worst cold ever) and he has been there every second for us. He gives you kisses each night and when I leave to go teach, he says he loves me and then says, "and, I love you Little Bean." It makes me so happy how much he already loves you. He loved you when you were just a dream, too. He has made me breakfast and dinner every day, ran errands and fills my water bottle without asking. You are one lucky little bean to have him as your Daddy. He's going to teach you all there is to know about Disney, how cool is that! He'll play catch with you or practice for your recitals with you (he's a pretty silly dancer). I'm sure you and Daddy will have plenty of fun teasing me and you know what, I don't know that I'll mind so much when I hear you two laughing together one day. That will be the sweetest thing I'll ever hear.  Daddy has been extremely cautious with you already. I have a feeling he's going to be quite protective of you. I'm okay with that. 

We have our first appointment to see you for the first time on January 2nd and 26 days has never felt so far away. I hope we get to see your sweet little heart beating. 

You are already the best thing that has ever happened to us and we love you more and more everyday!

Love,

Mommy 

4 Weeks

Pregnancy Highlights

How far along: 4 weeks 

{Papa's idea...taking pictures in front of the barn where we got married each week}

Total Weight Gain/Loss: Last week I was consistently 120.5 lbs every morning, and the past few days I have been 121.2. So I guess that means I've almost gained a pound. Good!! :) My goal is to be around 125 lbs. by 10 weeks. 

Symptoms: I am exhausted and constantly hungry! I go to bed by 8pm at the latest and wake up around 8:30pm. Although last night I didn't go to bed until 11pm, but I was excited from hanging out with Nana & Papa and sharing our news. Matt and I also decided what we want my parents to be called before falling asleep last night. I'll write about that after we tell them though. Oh boy am I excited, it's so cute!! 

I also have teeny bits of cramps here and there. More like little twinges or pinches than cramps though. Oh, and more gas. Sick I know..sorry ; )

Maternity Clothes: I definitely am fitting just fine in all of my clothes and will for a while. I am really excited to get to wear maternity clothes though. I'll get to wear my friend Haley's maternity clothes and they are so so cute! I can't wait to go buy some too :)

Best Moment Last Week: Finding out we were pregnant just 6 days ago, telling my best friends and telling Matt’s parents! 

Gender: I am thinking it will be a boy. Not "hoping" for one, I will really be ecstatic for either, but I just have a feeling. I'm always wrong about these things though. We’ll see if I keep feeling that way or not. 

Movement: I wish I could feel something this early, still a few more months until that happens:)

Food Cravings: Cheddar Cheese (preferably in the form of cheese sticks).

Food aversions: breakfast in general. I have a hard time eating anything in the morning, but I force myself because I know it will make me feel better when I’m starving an hour later. 

What I Miss: absolutely nothing. What could be better than knowing our child is so close to me...

Sleep: A lot of it, but not good sleep. I wake up to pee once a night and am having crazy dreams. Matt said I was sleeping sideways last night. I read that you should not sleep on your right side, so I’ve been sleeping on my left side. That means Matt and I had to switch sides because we can’t sleep facing each other. It’s been weird. I’m sure we’ll get used to it soon and it will feel normal again. I’m glad to be on that side of the bed though because in the long run I’d have to be. That’s where we’ll have the baby sleep in the beginning once they’re here. 

What I am looking forward to: I am looking forward to being able to tell my Mom & Dad. I am waiting to be able to tell them in person. It’s hard to talk to them now and not say anything. Just about 15 more days. I usually call them once/day, but I've been calling every other instead. Then there is more for them to talk to me about and I don't have to talk at all. So far, they haven't noticed anything different. They're going to freak out!! Eek! I'm so excited for that moment! 

Telling the Parents (Nana & Papa L.)

Tonight I am 3 weeks and 6 days and cannot wait to say I am 4 weeks tomorrow.

For some reason that feels safer. 

We had Matt's parents (Nana & Papa L.) over for dinner tonight. It was Papa's birthday on Monday so we thought this would be the perfect time to tell them. We recently ordered our wedding photo book (almost a year and a half over due) to give to them as a Christmas gift. We took the photo of me with our pregnancy test and a note reading, "Happy Birthday Papa! Love, Little Baby Lanese. P.S Can't wait to meet you in August 2013" and stuck them in the back of the book. 

When they got here dinner wasn't done yet so Matt said, "How about we have you open your birthday present!" He actually looked through the whole book first :) There were a few times when the back page peeked through but I'll never know if they saw it before really "seeing" it. They were happy and there were hugs. They've known we have been trying so it was definitely no surprise. They were definitely happy and I'm glad we got to share our happy happy news with them. Their baby is going to be a Dad, that's pretty cool. 

Matt made a delicious Pot Roast and we all ate a ton. Mmmm (Little Bean & I were happy). We watched home videos that Papa is putting on dvd's for the kids for Christmas. It was so awesome to see and hear Matt as a toddler. I just dreamt the whole time wondering if our Little Bean will be a boy and if he is, if he will look like the cute little chubby cheeked boy I just watched in the videos. That would make me so so happy. I've been telling Matt I have a feeling we're going to have a boy first. We'll see...I hope we get to find out around 16 weeks. That's still 3 months from now though! 

We talked about getting a head start and painting the nursery sooner than later. We're going to have my mom come out here around Valentine's Day and help us paint it. She would really love that. 

Now one set of parents know...just 8 more days until we tell Matt's siblings and just about 18 days until we get to tell my family! It's so hard to wait, but it will be worth it to tell them in person. 

Best Christmas Ever :) This was right before Nana & Papa arrived. We were super nervous.

Cogsy wanted to get in the pictures too, cute little guy!

My awesome husband making fun of me...Oh so funny! I just told him, "See what you get for teasing me, you get BLOGGED!"

Hehe :) 

This really is the best Christmas ever. 

First Appointment, Plans & Realizations!

Our first appointment is scheduled! 

January 2, 2013

I will be 7 weeks and 6 days (so basically 8 weeks). We should definitely be able to hear the heartbeat and hopefully get to see our Little Bean then and I am so excited!

The time between now and then is going to go so fast. We leave for our 2 day drive to Wisconsin on December 20th. We'll be with my family through Christmas and will leave on December 30th or 31st.

We decided tonight how we are going to tell my parents while we're there!
One of my dance moms is a great photographer. She knew we were trying and has always known that when we got pregnant that we would let her know and she could take announcement photos for us.
So this weekend we are going to head to a library (because our libraries are beautiful here) and take cute pictures. Probably in the kids section :) I love it!
We're going to frame one of them and give it to my parents as a Christmas gift.

I also realized today that August 15th, our due date, is my Grandma's birthday!
So we're going to tell her at Christmas too, but that's it. Just my immediate family and my Grandma.
We got married on her mom's birthday (my Great Grandma) so this is so amazing. She's going to be so excited and my mom is going to freak! Now the dates even more beautiful because I love my Grandma.

We told our best friends yesterday while we were out to lunch with them.
We had not planned on telling them that early. They knew we were trying so it was nearly impossible for us to hold it in! They were so so happy. And then it hit me and I cried :)

Last night Matt was still hesitant (silly man) so he wanted me to take a test that says "pregnant" or "not pregnant". He was so happy and hugged me so tight and had tears in his eyes. He said, "Ok, now I believe it!" : )

Tonight I went grocery shopping for healthy snacks and a yummy dinner (salmon, asparagus baked in foil with soy/honey/garlic and potatoes) YUM. I'm hungry ALL day long. So it will be nice to have good choices for snacks. 

I'm really excited to take our pictures this weekend. And also that we get to see our Little Bean in just 28 more days!!! I know I am definitely good at waiting until the #28 ; ) 

-Mommy to Be-

We're Pregnant!

I really can't believe it. I can't believe I get to write it out now. Wow...
I am pregnant!

We did really for the first time feel totally awesome about our timing this month. 

Every time I got sad this month or anxious (which was often), Matt would stay strong insisting that I would see that this month was the month.

I can't believe that I will get to tell my parents in person that we're going to have a baby.

According to when I had my last period, our babies due date is:

August 15, 2013

I think that's a beautiful date.

And it's the perfect time to have a baby here in WA. August is always so beautiful. And September and October are also my favorites in regards to weather here. Perfect for how I could feel postpartum. 

I said that all I wanted for Christmas was a positive test. That's it.

Matt asked me if he could open his new Wii U that's sitting under the tree since I got my present early, ha, yeah right...! ; )

We are still deciding how we are going to tell our immediate families.

I'm still really nervous about everything. It doesn't feel all the way real yet, but at the same time it feels like this is exactly when it was supposed to happen all along and that it just feels right.
We're going to Carter's outlet store today to get little onuses for my mom and dad for Christmas that say cute little "I love my Grandma"...etc. That's how we'll tell them. In WI, in person. We dreamt of this being the way it worked out. I prayed and prayed that we would be able to tell my parents in person when we went to WI for Christmas. We get to tell my little brother, Cody then too! 

 Now that I know I am pregnant I am realizing that certain things that have been happening make more sense. Our pug, Cogsworth, has wanted to do nothing but follow me around and cuddle with me the past few days. Usually it's Matt. He's actually curled up next to me right now. Friday I worked in my office at the studio all day. Around 1pm I was famished. I called Matt to see if he wanted to go to Panera with me. He had already eaten but said he'd love to go anyways. I ordered a tuna sandwich (oops shouldn't eat tuna) AND a bowl of tomato soup. I had two trays...they were all for me lol and I ate all of it. I was still hungry after but Matt assured me that I would live if I did not have a peanut butter dream cookie.

Makes sense now...

I had all my team kids (20 K-7th graders) over to the studio last night for their Christmas sleepover. I am exhausted! I could sleep all day.
I took another test when I got home today. Matt finally believes it too. We walked out of the bathroom and set the timer. Matt hugged me so that I couldn't cheat and run to the bathroom early. Then he grabbed my hand and we walked in together. I didn't look at the test. I decided I would judge by his face. I've never seen him smile so big, and then I knew. I looked down and saw this!

There is no denying that second line now. I had my doubts yesterday and now today I feel 100% confident. Tomorrow I am going to call our midwife :)

{just got home from the team sleepover...like literally walked in the door to the bathroom} :)

Comparison of the past three days tests. I am not going to take anymore for a few more days when Matt would like me take one that says "pregnant" :)

Happy Happy Sunday friends!

-The Mommy to Be- (hehe)

Hmmm...

I'm trying so hard to not get too excited.

I could not sleep at all last night. I was up like every hour.

For a good 2 hours I was up just reading blogs I found via Google all about "very very faint lines" lol.

Oh geez. 

So last night I took the test around 8pm.

This morning I took another one at 8:30pm so about 12 hours later, and Matt agrees it is just a tad bit darker. More noticeable. You don't have to squint and stare to find it.

I'm wondering if that's just because we know where to look now and know what we're looking for.

We have them next to each other now and I swear it's darker.

Now I really think I am just going crazy.

This never happened before, and I test every month. 

I'm almost afraid to know if this is normal or not. I'd rather just not know and have it in my  head for a whole day that I could possibly be pregnant right now... :) 

(I just saw that my comments setting had been turned off from when I made my blog private a while ago, I fixed it now...please don't tell me I'm crazy though lol, I'd rather live in LaLaLand today) ; )

(I'm so annoyed that my "1" got that sloppy on this...it's hard to write on the bumps with a runny marker)

Tonight I have a sleepover at my dance studio with all 20 of my team kids for their Christmas party. That should take my mind off things, thank goodness! Until then, I'm going to read, do lots of laundry and try to finish our Christmas Cards. If they're still getting darker by Monday I'm going to call our midwife :) 

Have a great day! I know I'm going to :)

-Chelsea Kay-